On the Sunday prior to our camping trip, I gave a presentation/sermon at the ALUUC. The sermon was on my “AH HA!” moments, and there was one super significant moment that I can’t believe I forgot to add.
About five or six years ago, I was really down. Marriage number four was failing completely and it seemed even hopeless to get out of it (yes, it was that bad). Then, without going into too much detail, I was going through some major issues at work that not too many people knew or, to this day, know about that sent me into a major depression. My inner being was seriously in a lot of pain, and I was contemplating taking my own life. I could just never bring myself to do it because of my children.
I was really bummed this one particular day. The weather may have had some impact; it was super cold and rainy out. My office at the time was on the second floor with a great view of the State Capitol. It also had a view of the main bus transfer point. As I looked out, I notice a guy in a wheel chair waiting for a bus. Like I said, it was super cold and rainy out. He had no coat, hat, or gloves. Yet, he was doing wheelies in his wheel chair like he was dancing in the rain. I could see the expression on his face that he was happy.
It was that precise moment that I realized how blessed I am just to be alive; that living, in and of itself, is an incredible blessing. From that moment, my heart, mind, and soul opened up to the really important things in life and the Universe. From there, I began studying Buddhism, Taoism, Paganism, New Age religion, Native American spirituality, etc. etc. I am now a member of the local UU congregation and the pagan group. I now truly “see.” However, I do have a lot more to see and learn. Hence, my desire to travel and experience.
[...] decided to go take a look at my history page tonight, and as I was reading it, I had another “AH HA!” moment. I usually got rather bummed when thinking about my life. But, as I was reading through it tonight, [...]